Thursday and I’m loosing my mind.

Hello friends! I just wanted to say Happy Thursday!! I have completely lost my mind! I literally thought today was Friday! I am waiting on a special call tomorrow and I’ve been really nervous about it!! I am hoping it leads to whatever God intends. Since the call I’m waiting for is so unlikely of me to volunteer, that’s why I’m nervous!!! It definitely is a God thing for sure! I will update you all on that!!

I have been trying to catch up on the Bachelor! I hear Krystal is gone!! Thank goodness!! She drove me crazy!! As you can see I’m a few episodes behind!!! What is with this kissing bandit Arie anyway? How can one fall in love 5 minuets in?! That’s why I love this train wreck! In my opinion, Chris Harrison is cuter than this years bachelor! I’ve always wondered why he didn’t become the Bachelor?! I’m married but I would sign up!! Hehe I’m kidding! That would most likely bring some drama they love over there at the Bachelor!!


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The Crown Season 2 Review

Hello Friends!!! I finally finished The Crown season 2! Oh goodness! I absolutely love this show!! I am obsessed with all things royal so me being a fan of this show just came natural!! If you haven’t seen the show, I highly recommend it! Netflix did a fabulous job on the actors. If you haven’t seen this show or made it through the season yet, I suggest reading no further. SPOILERS AHEAD!!!!

I am so sad to see Claire Foy and Matt Smith are living the show! I understand though the Queen and Prince Philip have to age and this was always part of the plan. I AM NOT READY!! I am sure the replacements will fit beautifully but they will have big shoes to fill in my opinion.

I think my favorite episode was Dear Mrs. Kennedy. WOW!! We will really never know if Jackie O ever said those things about the Queen but it did give good character development for Jackie in this episode.  I know that Camelot has come under fire for a variety of reasons but this was just well done.

Overall this season was filled with drama no doubt, and it made me have a more respect and better understanding for the royal family. We think being Queen or King for a day would be wonderful, but this show gives a glimpse that it may not be glamorous after all.

I can not wait for season 3 which I think doesn’t come out until next year 2019. I most likely will restart season 1 over again just to past the time for waiting! I know we can expect Prince Charles to Camilla in the next season! Wonder if we will get a glimpse of Princess Diana?!! The suspense is killing me!

Let me know what you think of the show, what you hope happens in season 3, who would you like to take over for Claire Foy and Matt Smith.


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ITS A NEW YEAR!! 2018!!!

Happy New Year!! I am sorry I am late! Things have been crazy busy and I just had a moment to sit down. I hope everyone has had a wonderful holiday! I have a small announcement! I have had this tug at my heart to change my blog ideas and “Step Out In Faith”! We still are trying to conceive and I will not totally give up this platform! I just feel like by studying God’s word and growing closer to Him, everything will fall into place the way it needs to. This is very scary for me because I have never felt a calling before, this is how I know this is real. I don’t know where this will lead if it leads anywhere. Only God knows that! I feel like venting and being negative all the time about infertility is in itself unhealthy. I am not saying we all don’t have our days for tears and anger but I know myself and being depressed all the time about if I will or will not be a mother is eating my life away. In turn that is whyI have felt this calling for over the past few months I am just now accepting the call. We will see where God will lead us. Thank you all for taking the time to read and support.


Stella Nash



I turned 32 last week. Scared. Depressed. Mortified. Having no kids yet has definitely hit me hard last week. We have come to a halt on everything kid trying. It just sucks. And frankly pisses me. I have a friend who decided that her 32 was going to have 32 adventures . I support it and I am jealous. How can I let go and not worry about all the shit around me to have 32 adventures? I thought by now we would have said kids doing the parenting part of life. Now I’ve decided I’m writing a book about infertility. Why? Is it so I can rehash the pain and desperation while I type every single word? 32 I hope for a better year. Maybe I can talk my friend into joining her 32 adventures maybe I do my own! I’m hoping by starting over and reinventing myself, like most celebrities, it will just happen. I’m hoping for more sunshine and less depressing posts. Until next time.

Stella Nash

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Back From Vacation!

Hello Y’all!! I am back fresh from vacation!! I went to NYC for the first time!! It was absolutely amazing!!! I feel refreshed and like myself again! Since my last entry I have decided to give this blog more attention and y’all more of my time. It really does help even if 1 person is reading this. Working full time, nursing full time, and just life is so exhausting. I just hope I can stick with it and write at least once a week if not more!! You’ve never been to NYC I suggest you go at least once! To stand next to huge buildings and the hustle, it put everything in prospective of how important it is to let the small things go and focus on yourself and family. Focusing on myself is one of my goals! I think the stress of trying to have a baby is driving me crazy and making me physically sick. I want to be a mother more than anything, I am not stepping away from the goal/dream, just readjusting how we get there.

Until Next Time,

Stella Nash

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Well I think it is has been too long since I have written.  Since my last entry there has no been no new news. Not pregnant, didn’t get pregnant, NOTHING. I had this bright idea to start writing a book about my infertile journey. Who will read that? It was semi therapeutic. I guess that is why I found myself back to my blog. I don’t want this journey any more to be negative and all down in the dumps. Even though we all know there are days when everything sucks. I swear I want to have as much fun with life as I can and live. I feel like I have gotten used to oh not pregnant so much I forget to live. My husband and I are both in school and my nursing program hasn’t even started yet but they told me pregnancy during the program will not work. So guess we will look back into children in 2019. Yup you read that right. 2019. My husband is so excited. At least in my mind I feel like he is celebrating. We haven’t had sex since February anyway. People always say well you’ve got to spice it up. It doesn’t matter what I do or what I say HE ISNT INTO SEX. Sex for pleasure or baby making I am on my own here. He wants a blood relationship so there goes the idea of adoption. My life has been a freaking mess. You haven’t missed much except a few agreements over when to have kids. I will be 34 and he will 44 in 2019. I know that is still “young” but seriously I wish you can feel my frustration. I know there will come a time when he says sorry I don’t want to have kids. I think he is there and won’t say anything. Those that know me having being a mother is NO SURPRISE. I asked him on the first date. YES! He was on board. It’s been 9 years of nothing. Fertility treatment after the next nothing works. IVF is the next step he won’t step out with me. I am completely at a loss for words. Anyway this is my rant for the evening getting you caught back up in my life.  Until next time

Stella Nash

babies, infertility, struggle, ttc

IUI #4…..bust

Well I’ve been gone awhile and since then we did another IUI. To no surprise it did not work. I’m not trying to be a negative Nancy but geez this is getting ridiculous. Anyway we are going to try again even though I am not on board I’d like to move on to IVF. I have decided to go back to school to complete my nursing degree hopefully that will keep my mind busy. Until next time,

Stella Nash